hello.

havent seen you guys in awhile
i mean, ive stopped by now and then
but not as much as i use to, no no no.

I have been pretty good
living a bums lifestyle to be exact.
no job, no school, no worries. traveling from here and there
ill be heading to Altoona PA around christmas
and come january ill be in Oregon. I dont know for how long but its not my grave.
Been partying excessively for the past...well, year.
2008 is a blur, memories are scattered like puzzle shards
or shiny rain. it has been a wild time and i wouldnt change anything, not even for everything...if that makes sense.
ummmm inspiration has been hard to find
whenever something is conjured up it feels recycled
same old shit. and most of my ideas are hard to put down once a pen is in my possession. its like magic, the way i lose thought.

Winter has come back
so that means i await seasonal depression ahahah
it always happens in winter, so its nothing new.
maybe my sad state can manifest something fresh, or philosophically entertaining. i know when im on that train west
and i am hopped up on uppers and downers and hallucy's ill be stuffing my eyes with so many books i better write something.

um
i am Belial
not the person, more so the definition
and i love it.